*Broken Promises*

You said we'd always be together,
And nothing could ever tear us apart.
You said you knew you loved me,
You could feel it in your heart.
You promised you'd love me forever,
And love doesnt change over night.
You said you cherished each minute together,
Every moment holding me tight.
You claimed you'd do anything for me,
There was nothing you wouldn't do.
You said if we kept no secrets,
There wasnt anything we couldnt get through.
You told me I was beautiful,
And I was perfect in every way.
You said that I was always on your mind,
You thought about me each and everyday.
You said you felt special when we were close,
Like all your worries had disappeared.
You claimed that you'd want me always,
Us being apart you greatly feared.
But here I am broken, torn ... all alone.
There's emptiness where you stood by my side.
That means many promises were broken,
I guess that means .. you lied.

THE FIRST TIME

THE FIRST TIME
THE FIRST TIME I SAW YOU
I KNEW YOU WERE THE ONE
THE FIRST TIME I SAW YOU,
I KNEW YOU WOULD BE SOON CALLING ME HUN.
THE FIRST TIME I SAW YOU, I SAW YOUR SMILING FACE
THE FIRST TIME I SAW YOU, TIME COULDN'T BE REPLACED.
THE FIRST TIME I SAW YOU, I WANTED TO BE YOUR GIRL
BUT THE FIRST TIME I SAW YOU, I WAS TOTALLY IN A DIFFERENT WORLD.

If Only..

If Only..
If only joy could last forever,
And happiness for more than a mere moment,
Fear would no longer reign,
And terror would be overcome

My life's purpose will have been reached,
And my soul will be glad,
For the good things have
Finally conquered over bad.

When joy is found
I will rejoice
For tears won't be needed
And screams won't last

Our lives will make us satisfied
We will be happy, and repent,
For our hungry souls
And our thirsty breasts
will no longer cry out to be fed.

* It's Over*

* It's Over*
This time it's over,
I'm keeping my heart.
I'm gonna be strong,
And not fall apart.
I'll get better,
I'll no longer cry.
In a couple of weeks,
I wont want to die.
I wont want to go back,
I'll be able so sleep.
It wont hurt so bad,
And it wont feel so deep.
I'm convincing myself,
Yes, I'll find someone new.
I wont be alone,
And I wont be with you.
You're waiting for me,
To crawl back to your side.
But no, not this time,
I'm keeping my pride.
So goodbye forever,
I'll be on my way.
It's gonna take time,
But I'll be ok.

* NEVER *

* NEVER *
Never say I love you,
If you really dont care.
Never talk about feelings,
If they arent really there.
Never hold my hand,
If you're gonna brake my heart.
Never say you're going to,
If you dont plan to start.
Never look into my eyes,
If all you do is lie.
Never say hello,
If you really mean goodbye.
If you really mean forever,
Then say you will try.
Never say forever,
Cause forever makes me cry.

Too Late

Too Late
It's funny how the tables turn,
and that the world is one big burn.
But the only thing I want to burn is you,
your such an @$$ but we already knew.

You hurt me so much and you made me cry,
now I'm praying for you to die.
My wish was granted, now I'm glad,
because now the world isn't so bad.

So now it's your funeral and no-ones there,
I'm off having fun; why should I care?
No pig faced jerk to ruin my day,
no mean jack@$$ to get in my way.

I'll just keep living my life without you here,
in my world of peace; not of fear.
You lured me in; like a magnet to steel,
you didn't even care how I would feel.

I was used and uncomfortable but you were good,
I used to trust the way I should.
But now it's all over, now it's too late,
and every inch of me is filled with hate.

This world without you makes me smile,
cuz I won't be seeing your face for awhile.
Perfect World.
Then I look up and see you looking at me,
but I can always dream, don't you agree?

Pain and Strength

Pain and Strength
I see the differences now
They are so damn clear
I will not bow,
Down to you , no more will you cheer

Cause im leaving
Im not taking this crap
No more heaving
Over what wasn't there

I cry when I think about
The pain you caused
Did you think it was funny to hear me shout
Or when I would cry in times of a pause

I sit hear and think
About how you could feel
I cant believe you lasted this long, why havnt you sinked
And I sit hear thinking about you can deal

My mind is everywhere
Except where it is suppose to be
I sit and stare
Thinking about what I should see

I wander if you're ever coming back
Or if you even remember me
Do you do this to every one, and give a big whack
You don't know the pain you caused, I wish you could see

You're a false item
Just like a rose
Your pointless like a petal
And easily washed away with a hose

I want you to keep
This in mind
I will peacefully sleep
All nice and kind

You won't be here
In my dreams
I have not yet to cheer
On what to you is good it seems

I do not know you
No more will I fear
Or be down in the blue
What you did was clear

What you did was wrong
But in the end it turned out good
What you did made me strong
I will not thank you, but really I should!

A Special Friendship

A Special Friendship
You are the special one
With whom I needn't pretend
You're always there when I need you
Just like a proper friend

I didn't think I'd trust anyone
The way that I trust you
But you have this way about you
And know how to get through

I've told you things I've only thought about
Of silent dreams I couldn't let out
Of life, emotions and trivial things
Such things of which happiness brings

I tell you if I am sad, or simply just confused
You're always there to listen, but never to be used
You tell me your secrets and what you're going through
You're always there for me as I am for you

Your friendship is a special gift
A lifetime it will last
Look to the future now and never to the past
New people you will meet, and many things you will do
But never forget me, because I'll never forget you.

Trust Me

Trust Me
As you sit in silence,
Wondering why
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
Until your tears run dry.

When you've been hurt,
And can't believe what they've done
If you need someone to talk to
I'll be the one.

If a close friend hurts you,
And you don't understand
Remember I'm here,
I'll lend a helping hand.

Burdens are lighter when carried by two,
And I just want you to know
I'm here for you.

Interesting

a renowned bulgarian psychologist, dr. george lozanov, designed a way to teach foreign languages in a fraction of the normal learning time. using his system, students could learn up to one half of the vocabulary and phrases for the whole school term (which amounts to almost 1,000 words or phrases) in one day. along with this, the average retention rate of his students was 92%. dr. lozanov's system involved using certain classical music pieces from the baroque period which have around a 60 beats per minute pattern. he has proven that foreign languages can be learned with 85-100% efficiency in only thirty days by using these baroque pieces. his students had a recall accuracy rate of almost 100% even after not reviewing the material for four years.

"One girl sent me a can of tennis balls, with a picture and a note that said, “Now you’ve Got the balls, give me a call”."

i want to hear your voice, its so sweet and tender, i want to see your choice, is it me or some contender.

The Meaning of Life

The Meaning of Life:
Well, it's nothing special. Try and be nice to people, avoid eating fat, read a good book every now and then, get some walking in and try and live together in peace and harmony with people of all creeds and nations.

"Are you the butterfly it seems that wafts and wavers through my dreams? Or is it I that floats on air and you the dreamer, I find there?"

When the White man is rich he's a sucess
When the Muslim is rich he's a suspect.

When i sleep i dream and it gets me by, i can make believe that you're here tonight.

There are things far too dark to comprehend. Sleep on it one more night my sad old friend. The Worst is Over.

-- l i f e i s a p h a s e --

Explodes

one might just as well try this: when something explodes, turn exactly opposite from it and see what there is to see. the loud will take care of itself, and everyone will be able to say what happened in that direction. but who is looking the other way? nature, that magician and author of loud sounds, zookeeper and cook, electrician and provocateur - maybe these events are nature's sleight of hand, and the real thing that's happening is in the other hand.

God

I asked God for a flower, and He gave me a garden. I asked Him for a tree, and He gave me a forest. I asked God for a river, and He gave me an ocean. I asked Him for a friend... and God gave me you!

Hangin' out with my true friends. True friends are the people that are there for you u n c o n d i t i o n a l l y. They are the people that -n-e-v-e-r- question you and support you n o m a t t e r what the circumstances are. They are the p e o p l e - w o r t h . l . i . v . i . n . g . f o r -

Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small people who find it easier to live in the world they've been given than to explore the power they have to change it. Impossible is not a fact. It's an opinion. Impossible is not a declaration. It's a dare. Impossible is potential. Impossible is temporary.

Quit worrying about stupid things. You have four years to be irresponsible. Relax - work is for people with jobs. You won't remember class time, but you will remember the time you spent hanging out with your friends. So, stay out late, go out on a Tuesday when you have a paper due Wednesday. Spend money you don't have. Drink until sunrise. The work never ends, but college does.

Take Chances. Tell the truth. Date someone totally wrong for you. Say no. Spend all your cash. Fall in love. Get to know someone random. Be random. Say I love you. Sing out loud. Laugh at stupid jokes. Cry. Apologize. Tell someone how much they mean to you. Tell a jerk what you think. Laugh til your stomach hurts and your eyes water. Live life. and most of all...have no regrets

**Each of us represents a star in the sky. Sometimes we shine with the rest, sometimes we twinkle alone, and sometimes... when we least expect it... we fall and make someone's dreams come true.**

"People are often unreasonable and self centered: forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives: be kind anyways. If you're successful, you'll win some false friends and some true enemies: succeed anyway. If you're honest and frank, people may cheat you: but be honest anyway. What you spend years building, someone can destroy overnight: build anyway. If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous: be happy anyway. The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow: do good anyway. Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough: give the world the best you've got anyway. You see, in the final analysis, its between you and God, it was never between you and them anyway . . ." -Mother Teresa

You cannot finish a book without closing its chapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave your past as you turn the pages of life. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.

It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.
- Theodore Roosevelt

Love

do something tonight that you wouldn't normally do...talk to the girl/guy that you were too scared to talk to...tell the people in your life that you love them, even if you're scared because they might be gone tomorrow and out of your life...wouldn't you feel better knowing that they know you love them...but then again, i should take my own advice!!!

Thoughts

they say, when you first see the love of your life, time stops, and that's true. what they don't tell you is that when it starts again, it moves extra fast to catch up.

there's a time when a man needs to fight, and a time when he needs to accept that his destiny is lost, that the ship has sailed, that only a fool would continue. the truth is, i've always been a fool.

The Buddha

"O bhikkus, in this world you will find one who is physically healthy. He will overcome illness and live eighty, even a hundred years. But very rarely, bhikkus, will you find one who is mentally healthy and free from attachment and suffering."
~The Buddha.

The Window

The Window

A great note for all to read. It will take just 37 seconds to read
this and change your thinking.
Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back. The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.
Every afternoon when the man in the bed by the window coul sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window. The man in the other bed began to live for those one-hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.
The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.
As the man by the window described all this in exquisite detail, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine the picturesque scene.
One warm afternoon the man by the window described a parade passing by. Although the other man couldn'thear the band -- he could see it. In his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.
Days and weeks passed. One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep. She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.
As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he as comfortable, she left him alone.
Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside. He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed. It faced a blank wall.
The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window. The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall. She said, "Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you."
Epilogue: There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations. Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled.
If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can't buy. "Today is a gift, that's why it is called the present."
People will forget what you said... People will forget what you did... But people will never forget how you made them feel... Make someone happy, share a kind word today.

Stuff

watching passion, truth, and beauty unfold and letting it fill me with life

i may be lying in the gutter, but i'm looking up at the stars

oh the alcoholic afternoons
when we sat in your room
they meant more to me than any
than any living thing on earth
they had more worth
than any living thing on earth

Random Stuff

Bill lied, Monica cried.
Bush lied, people died.

Corporate Merger

Faheem Inc. was founded in 1981 with the merger of Mommy Inc. and Daddy Inc. respectively now known as the parent company. Faheem Inc. has been around for approximatly 22 years and while has not had many productive years does show quite a bit of promise. Faheem Inc. is currently looking to take on a partner or partners that he can perhaps one day form a merger of his own with and form a parent company. The ideal partner Faheem Inc. is looking for would have to be with a corperation that hasnt formed many mergers and doesnt believe in downsizing. While also the corporation must stay truthful and faithful to the merger and not have any side deals to keep them selves afloat in the event that the new Parent company hits a rough time and the stock value falls.

My Self...

"They're putting dimes in the hole in my head to see the change in me."

I dont know who i am anymore, i feel like im lost, i dont want to be so lost. I just want to be my self again, but i cant seem to be me anymore, i dont have any interests in the things that i used to find so enjoyable, and i feel this emptiness inside of me because of it. I want to find my self before its to late, but i cant seem to do it.

lyrical burst

im mixing out these rhymes cause my life has no signs,
no map or directions,
im lost in reflection,
im simply here for the show,
i dont know where to go,
i want to see so much more but its all an insurection,

i feel so alone, i want to go home,
i want to fall asleep,
i need to hear the beat of a brand new tune...

turn up the music,
fill out your life,
dont you dare consider wasting whats right,
i dont know how to do it,

i dont really care,
i wish you'd go for it,
i guess i;ll see you there...


mixing it up,
throwing it down,
what ever it be,
make a sound,

dnt leave me alone,
all afraid of the dark,
I'm playing with matches,
just looking for the spark,
a fire ignights it burns so ture,
i feel like im just falling away from you,

my life is all twisted,
It's all a mind game,
If i try hard enough,
I'm sure id go insane.
i'm try not to hide this,
Im trying to show through

And if i thought about it,
I'm sure id see you,
for who you really are,
your nothing but a lie to me,
Your just a simple spark...

The answers to life, the universe and everything...

This question was just brough up to me recent and i have decied to take on the task of tackling such a hard topic. First lets talk about the answers to life. Life is such a complex creation. Every day we question our very reason for being, while theorists have spent many years trying to come up with a good answer theologists simply say we are the creation of God. But what of Darwins theory? Perhaps we really are a simple creation of split molecules. While we are at one end of the spectrum there is an opposite end. That end is the end of life. Only when you look at it, there really is no end, we go from one life form to the next life form, while in our present state of being we are capable of eating in our next state of being we are the ones being eaten, we provide nurishment and nutrients to the planet and our surroundings. In this aspect life will forever carry on. Inbetween these two ends we have what we call our actual life, this is what we actually live. In our leave we have a few quests, one of these quests is to maintain our existance, another goal is to procreate. Often we tend to find our selves wanting a companion to procreate with. So it is safe to say that the real meaning of life is to maintain existance, procreate and then become bug food. Solving this question let us go on to the universe.

The universe is vastly more complex than life. While we can peice together the creation of us, it is slightly harder to peice together the creation of something we hardly understand. We often question how something could be created from nothing. This is when we turn to religion. But then there is the question of how this greater being came to be, the real meaning of the universe is to confuse us enough to find the meaning of life and since i have managed to figure out the meaning of the universe you can all rest saftly in the knowledge that my meaning of life is correct. As for an explination of everything i feel i have found the answer to that as well...

We can saftly group life and the universe into the catagory of everything. When people have a problem and they are frustrated and somebody asks whats the matter we often respond with everything. So its safe to say that life and the universe are involved and since life and the universe are often interchangable and consist of one another and just about all objects are some how related to life or the universe it is even safer to say that everything is relative to our lives and the universe we are encased in. So the answer to everything is the universe and the answer to the universe is life and the answer to life is everything.

Having said that, there really is no meaning to any of these questions. There is only what we let it mean. To some life is a game to others life is a series of tests and to the rest life is a bitch. But bitches are a totally different topic that i will answer in a later post. So having answered these questions you can now rest assured that i wasted your time and there really is no answer to any of the following questions. Once again our meager existances are riddled with the question of "why am i here, what does it all mean?" What it means is sit down, shut up and enjoy the ride life has to offer.